Posted by annemarie | Posted in Miscellaneous | Posted on 28-04-2012
I was asked by a good friend the other day while we were watching our sweet girls play together if it is ever hard to see Mom’s who are pregnant with their second. I had never really thought of it. I remember feeling very discouraged when I was trying for my first and I would hear of a friend who was expecting. It was horribly painful to attend baby showers, that I just stopped going all together. I remember after my IUI and having to wait those two very long weeks, my dear friend was to have her baby shower the same day I was going to find out. I remember feeling so selfish thinking that if I wasn’t pregnant that I would have to skip it, and if I was, I would go. I think I have gained perspective this time around that everyone’s timing is different and mine is definitely not on the fast track and I’m really okay with that.
I know a lot of women struggle with comparing and wanting so badly to be pregnant that just seeing another woman pregnant is so incredibly painful. I’ve been there and it’s tough. There’s still a twinge of pain when I see an announcement on Facebook, but the pain is duller and I’m stronger. A part of me is thankful that I get all of this time with PJ to love on her and only her. She get’s my full attention, my everything. My husband and I do laugh, though, that she really does need a sibling! She’s getting a little spoiled lately with all of our attention.
Remember, that comparing during this tough road of infertility is only going to make it harder. Sometimes we can’t help it when it seems that everyone around us is either pregnant or giving birth. I have to go back into my thought process and bring myself down to earth and tell myself that the timing for me is slower but it doesn’t mean it will never happen. When I stop comparing and start living life knowing full well that I’m the luckiest person in the world for what I’ve been given, it makes the waiting process so much sweeter.
In a week I will be taking a pregnancy test, so by my next blog I might be announcing some exciting news OR I might be getting ready for another month of trying. Either way, I’m thankful & my cup is full.