Posted by kellycarcione | Posted in Kelly Carcione, Mommy-To-Be | Posted on 25-05-2013
Tags: Kelly Carcione, Mommy to be, siblings
As I approach the “any day now” mark, I’ve been busy checking items off of my to-do list, making new to-do lists and waddling around while the hours and days fly by in a flash. I’ve been concentrating on the arrival of a new baby, but it occurred to me today that I may be unprepared for the end of our tidy little family of four. My eldest son was just 18 months old when he was graced with a baby brother. He doesn’t remember a day without him. (My sister and I are also very close in age, so I did not remember a time without her.)
The boys, now 5 and 4, are old enough that they will remember a time without their new brother or sister. It also means that they will have the unique experience of seeing an entire life unfold, up close. They will share the joys of the first steps, first words and see wonder in the eyes of their tiny protégé. Although their life experiences are limited, they will have lived and will be able to thoughtfully pass on what they have garnered from these experiences to a brand new human being.
Seasoned parents have warned me that Kindergarten triggers your family’s fast-forward button. Academia, with its schedules and responsibilities, tends to mark the end of a childhood era. Perhaps that is the reason that this pregnancy, which aligns nearly perfectly with the first year of Kindergarten, has seemed so fleeting.
Our family life will become even fuller in the days ahead, yet I also know that these two brothers are the best of friends and will need to make way for one more pal. I am grateful to have such a delightful family with so many happy times and traditions. Am I rushing through these last few weeks? Will I wish that I had spent more time just being with my two boys before our family dynamic is altered forever? I’s have been dotted, T’s crossed, and quite frankly, I am tired of being pregnant. On paper, I am ready to have this baby. But off the record, I am hoping to pause for one more day so I can stay in this utopia that is us.