Posted by MissyHall | Posted in Adopting Mommy | Posted on 20-06-2012
Tags: adoption, Missy Hall, phone, waiting
Lately, every time I go to answer my phone and it is an unknown number, my heart starts to beat faster. What if it is a social worker? our agency? a family has been found who wants us to adopt their child? …what’s that, “Today!” you say?…
But, alas it turns out to be the dentist reminding me of my appointment (joy) or the local pizza place offering a coupon (okay), or just a friend whose number I do not have programmed and I have to try and not sound disappointed. We are at the “they could call any day” phase of our adoption…but its also the “they could call 3 months or 6 months or whatever” phase, too.
I get my hopes up, even though we are not in a hurry. I am expecting a child, even though I have to continue to plan things in our life. It could be a big window of time; we could get many more unknown calls. We probably will even receive calls that we do know are from our agency and the details just don’t work out. So…waiting, not ranting, is what I need to learn to do.
I hear things move slower in the summer. We are totally ready, and yet I cannot jump every time the phone rings or continue to NOT make plans when it really could be awhile. It’s strange to be expecting someone who will be part of your family forever and whom you will love wholeheartedly, but not know when he/ she is coming.
Somehow I (we, but mostly me) have to learn to keep living life, keep making plans and stop cursing at the phone when the unknown number is not who I was hoping it would be.