Posted by Annie Kayser, Working Mommie | Posted in Working Mommy | Posted on 22-08-2011
Tags: Annie Kayser, being present, change, growing up, toddler
She’s almost 3 years old, this little baby of mine, but don’t call her a baby because she will tell you, “I’m a big girl. I’m not a baby anymore!”… and she’s not, she’s so not a baby anymore. Where is the time going? I want it to slow down, but in the same breath, I of course know that it won’t… and so I’m doing my best to be ever more “present” in each moment. Not just with her, but with myself, in every area of my life.
The change in Allie in just the last couple of weeks has been remarkable. She all of a sudden doesn’t just seem bigger, but she seems MUCH more mature. I know every parent must experience this around this age, just before three (and I’m sure there are many more times coming where I’ll feel it this strongly too). This stage is the final movement out of the baby / toddler stages and seriously into little girlhood, isn’t it. Just in the last two weeks, Allie has finally decided to use the potty, all on her own… just like that. We thought we’d lucked out right after she turned two, but that was a fluke. It’s not been an easy road with the potty training. So to have her announce, all of a sudden, and repeatedly, that she needs to use the potty has been amazing! On top of that, her vocabulary skills are intensifying to the point where I am shaking my head in disbelief, that some of these sentences and concepts are coming out of her mouth. Over the weekend she told me, as we were driving, “mommy, you forgot your sunglasses”, which I had! Really? Observant little one all of a sudden. She’s also begun to be much more affectionate, which is absolutely wonderful. Of course, there is the flip side, where she is also asserting her independence much more as well. I’ll take the good with the bad. I know it’s all part of it.
I guess I’m just feeling it, more than ever before, and I know it is far from the last time… that this stage that my daughter has been, this cute toddler stage, with the funny words and the cute little run and she still fits on the changing table, is going, going, ALMOST gone. I am holding on to every dear second of what’s left of it, even though I know that what is next is just as wonderful. I see her changing and growing into this beautiful little girl, and I want so much to always remember her this way, because I know I have already forgotten things about how she was as an infant that I swore I wouldn’t forget. So what can I do? Just be present… really truly take in every moment with her, as best I can. Be present, not just for myself to feel completely immersed in my life with her, but so that she knows her mommy is genuinely here for her and cares about her more than anything. It’s easier said than done, as I’ve got a million things running through my mind with my new business venture, but that absolutely needs to be secondary (as important as that is). Making the time to be in the moment with her, for her, for me, is the most important thing I can do… since I can’t stop time…