The Mommies' Diaries…Parenting, One Blog at a Time.

So we thought that my period would come normally this time but it didn’t. Had to get back on progesterones but this time, it only took me 1 day to get my period, as opposed to 7 days. I think that’s a good sign. Now I just have to wait for day 21, 22 or 23 to get my blood test. Hopefully after this, I can get on clomid. It’s not guaranteed but it will help my eggs move. So strange that my eggs were moving and fine but just after turning 30 and getting on the pill again. I had to get on before my wedding because I was off of it for a year and broke out bad.

If clomid doesn’t work, next steps would be artificial insemination implantation, then if this doesn’t work, we would have to revert to in vitro, which is very costly. This would cost us $10,000 each time!   I just hope that it doesn’t get to this level because it is very expensive.  It’s so funny how celebrities these days have so much money that they just go through in vitro like it’s nothing to have twins.

I really have to thank this infertility program.  Sometimes I have mixed feelings about this, like is this playing God? I mean if it was many years ago, same situation, I wouldn’t be able to have kids.  Such a depressing feeling, but in light of it all, God has a plan for me and I believe in what is destined for me.  I mean I am not too sad about the whole ordeal because I am still young.  Some folks start having kids at 35 and up and I am only 30.  I think it would be a different story if I was a super career wife and traveling.  Right now, I do work, and I do work hard, but I work from home, and it’s about 5-6 hours a day, rather than your typical 8-9 hours, plus travel.   Just given my current situation and the pressures from our family, it would just be perfect to have one now.  Plus, I don’t want to be too old.  If we want 3 kids, we have to start soon.

Some of my friends started out young and although it was hard for them before, they got it made now.  Their kids are in elementary school and are pretty established and can take care of their own.  They can go shopping together, do fun activities together, and just hang out.  My friends can now do what they want and pretty much when they want, like having fun, working out, career, and not have to worry since they are still young and energetic. I guess we all have different paths and I am respecting my path.  Thank God for Infertility Program!